Day 2: Walking on Water
First let me apologize and state future post will not be as long and drawn out!
I'm sitting here sipping on Ice Mountain water wishing it was a Mai Tai or better yet a Daily's Frozen Margarita. Yes I'm in need of a drink. I'm feeling overwhelmed not by work or home but just with worry about whats next in my life.
Yesterdays Fearless: A Six Week Journey scripture came from Matthew 14:22-33. It was about Peter stepping out of that boat and walking on water but then became afraid and started to sink. It made me wonder is this what happens in our everyday life, we start to do something and then become afraid and begin to sink. For example I recently applied to grad school. I didn't tell many people because sometimes I fear that if I let people know something before I actually accomplish it then its an automatic failure. I applied, waited for my acceptance or rejection letter and then received nothing! I eventually called the school and found out my third recommendation came in late so my application wasn't reviewed. I was disappointed, still am. So I figured if God didn't work it out then maybe school isn't the direction I'm supposed to go in. Now I'm feeling a little like Peter I set out on the water, mustered up some courage knowing that God had me, excited about the next step, but as soon as the wind blew (me knowing I wasn't going to school in the fall), I began to sink. Feeling as though God really didn't have me.
So I'm attempting to gather up more faith and less fear, trusting that something more is in store for me. And one heavy wind might shake me but it doesn't knock me over. I think it would be great just to walk on water fearless!
Be fearless,
Vida
I'm sitting here sipping on Ice Mountain water wishing it was a Mai Tai or better yet a Daily's Frozen Margarita. Yes I'm in need of a drink. I'm feeling overwhelmed not by work or home but just with worry about whats next in my life.
Yesterdays Fearless: A Six Week Journey scripture came from Matthew 14:22-33. It was about Peter stepping out of that boat and walking on water but then became afraid and started to sink. It made me wonder is this what happens in our everyday life, we start to do something and then become afraid and begin to sink. For example I recently applied to grad school. I didn't tell many people because sometimes I fear that if I let people know something before I actually accomplish it then its an automatic failure. I applied, waited for my acceptance or rejection letter and then received nothing! I eventually called the school and found out my third recommendation came in late so my application wasn't reviewed. I was disappointed, still am. So I figured if God didn't work it out then maybe school isn't the direction I'm supposed to go in. Now I'm feeling a little like Peter I set out on the water, mustered up some courage knowing that God had me, excited about the next step, but as soon as the wind blew (me knowing I wasn't going to school in the fall), I began to sink. Feeling as though God really didn't have me.
So I'm attempting to gather up more faith and less fear, trusting that something more is in store for me. And one heavy wind might shake me but it doesn't knock me over. I think it would be great just to walk on water fearless!
Be fearless,
Vida
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