Journey to Fearless: Day 1
I'm sitting here on the verge of having a sugar rush sipping on a Mountain Dew and thinking, I'm so not a blogger, yet I have such a strong desire to write how I feel, what I think and see, and whether it gets noticed or not doesn't even matter, as long as I get it out. So I'm going to try this thing called blogging at least until I run out of things to write about.
The last time I blogged was March 14, 2012 and I still have that post saved in my drafts. I think its insane that I blogged last year around the same time and now I have such a strong urge to do it again. Maybe that's how God talks. Sometimes not with words but placing the same urge in you to do something that you feel like you can't, or maybe not, who knows. Well here goes nothing welcome to complete randomness, my beginning blog, Sipping on Something...
The last time I blogged was March 14, 2012 and I still have that post saved in my drafts. I think its insane that I blogged last year around the same time and now I have such a strong urge to do it again. Maybe that's how God talks. Sometimes not with words but placing the same urge in you to do something that you feel like you can't, or maybe not, who knows. Well here goes nothing welcome to complete randomness, my beginning blog, Sipping on Something...
I'm currently reading a YouVersion Devotional "Fearless: A Six Week Journey". After much thought and a few words from a woman that I look up to I decided I needed to "get my life" (spoken like a Tamar Braxton fan). So on this journey to get my life I needed to first attempt to get back into Word. So I was looking for the Lecrae devotional and instead saw "Fearless: A Six Week Journey". I thought this is perfect I can become fearless in six weeks, and get back into reading Word, and since its a journey I can start at the basics and move my way up! (Lately I've been reading hood novels like Unique, Money Making Mommas 1 2 & 3, which are good stories but I was in dire need of a change of pace. I think I was beginning to live out the rachetness I was reading).
So I'm still in the introduction part of "Fearless..." and today I was asked "What do you fear?" My first thought was nothing really but my second was man probably a lot of things. I fear the dark like seriously its not one of those I'm scared of the dark type of feelings where I have to keep on a night light or the TV (which I do), but its more serious than that. I'm terrified of what could possibly sneak out in the dark. All the insects I dislike, like the dark; spiders, centipedes all those other things with too many legs and small bodies. All the secrets I keep or people keep surface when the lights go off and its just me and my thoughts. To me the dark is a cesspool of things I don't want to see or think about and things that don't want to be seen. Numero 2 I fear being misjudged. People look at others and judge them instantly I fear that because my personality comes off as a conundrum people will mistake me for being phony. Like every mistake, miscomment, miscommunication, missed eye contact will be interpreted incorrectly, or difficult to figure out. 3rd I fear being stuck in the same place. I want to grow, live lavish, have fun, have interesting stories to tell when I get old, and do things that I actually want to do instead of always having an excuse of why I can't do them. Last but surely not least I fear Jesus will tell me "Ja'Vida you aren't doing anything I planned for your life" and then would shake his head. And I will be so disappointed, that I didn't live up to His expectation. Its a headache to know that you're off track. I can't stand to hear my parents or most of my family for that matter say they are disappointed. It really hurts me, so to think the Head Dude In Charge might feel that way, I think would completely crush me. I really feel like I have to drop this heavy load called fear off at the next stop because I think it stops me from fully living and being completely me. So as I embark on this Six Week Journey keep me in your prayers and hopefully you'll let go something you fear along the way also.
I know that was a lot and most was probably irrelevant but now I'm asking you what do you fear (of course you don't have to tell me) just think about it. Maybe write it down, hell start a blog lol. But think about it and think whether or not its adding value to your everyday dealings. If it doesn't maybe you should start searching for a way to drop it off right next to where I'm leaving mine!
The scripture from today's devotion was: Psalm 46
Be fearless,
Vida
So I'm still in the introduction part of "Fearless..." and today I was asked "What do you fear?" My first thought was nothing really but my second was man probably a lot of things. I fear the dark like seriously its not one of those I'm scared of the dark type of feelings where I have to keep on a night light or the TV (which I do), but its more serious than that. I'm terrified of what could possibly sneak out in the dark. All the insects I dislike, like the dark; spiders, centipedes all those other things with too many legs and small bodies. All the secrets I keep or people keep surface when the lights go off and its just me and my thoughts. To me the dark is a cesspool of things I don't want to see or think about and things that don't want to be seen. Numero 2 I fear being misjudged. People look at others and judge them instantly I fear that because my personality comes off as a conundrum people will mistake me for being phony. Like every mistake, miscomment, miscommunication, missed eye contact will be interpreted incorrectly, or difficult to figure out. 3rd I fear being stuck in the same place. I want to grow, live lavish, have fun, have interesting stories to tell when I get old, and do things that I actually want to do instead of always having an excuse of why I can't do them. Last but surely not least I fear Jesus will tell me "Ja'Vida you aren't doing anything I planned for your life" and then would shake his head. And I will be so disappointed, that I didn't live up to His expectation. Its a headache to know that you're off track. I can't stand to hear my parents or most of my family for that matter say they are disappointed. It really hurts me, so to think the Head Dude In Charge might feel that way, I think would completely crush me. I really feel like I have to drop this heavy load called fear off at the next stop because I think it stops me from fully living and being completely me. So as I embark on this Six Week Journey keep me in your prayers and hopefully you'll let go something you fear along the way also.
I know that was a lot and most was probably irrelevant but now I'm asking you what do you fear (of course you don't have to tell me) just think about it. Maybe write it down, hell start a blog lol. But think about it and think whether or not its adding value to your everyday dealings. If it doesn't maybe you should start searching for a way to drop it off right next to where I'm leaving mine!
The scripture from today's devotion was: Psalm 46
Be fearless,
Vida
Omg sis I love you! I just said I was going to cut some stuff/people out of my life and "blog my FREE" I too am not a "blogger" yet... But I have spent these last few days talking about how I need to "get my life!" I am starting this devotional with you. Thanks for the inspiration. You're one brave soul and I value your life, light,& love. #Founders<3
ReplyDeleteOmg! Loved reading your blog & your beginning journey to fearlessness! The part about God speaking to us without words is really somethin interesting!!! I've been thinking about writing a book of prayers. I've always feared praying in public, but lately I've been trying to praise harder in my dialogue with Him and be more specific in my requests. Then I started typing my prayers & my favorite scriptures in my Evernote app & I'm wondering how many people pray for the same things I do our want help with getting closer to Good through prayer like I do. Anyhoo, I like your blog because... Well, just because really! Thanks for sharing & keep writing to us!
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